The horrors of the pandemics sickness, death, andthe incomprehensible long shut-ins that people have had to endure, along with the strife of Black Lives Matter and political turmoil,were unrelenting in their multiple waves of despair. It kept slamming us down over and over again, not letting us rise to our feet or get a mental grip of what is right and wrong, who is friend or foe, spinning us out of control with ourselves and others. Putting pieces of my soul on paper during these last 10 months, making words try to find answers to this frenzywe are going through,was a quest as confusing as the events happening all around us